So long, Insecurity.

     "Don't worry about anything, instead pray about everything...Then you will experience God's peace." 

Philippians 4:6

     A couple of weeks ago I was asked to be a part of a small group at church. I was told that some girls were getting together to read through and discuss a Beth Moore book titled, So Long, Insecurity. Immediately I was intrigued. I mean, just the title had me wanting to jump right in. Anyone who knows me knows that, like most girls, I struggle (majorly) with being insecure. There is so much in the media about how girls are supposed to look, act, dress, talk, think....the list could go on and on! I always tell myself that it doesn't matter what I look like on the outside, its my character that truly counts. Yeah, right! Try telling that to a guy in a bar...or a guy anywhere for that matter. "Hey! I know my friend is much thinner than me, but my personality is killer!" I'm so sure that would work!! Anyways, even though I try to tell myself that it doesn't matter what I look like, or what people think of me, the truth is that I do care. I do worry what people say, or think when I walk in to a room of strangers. "Do these jeans give me a muffin top?" "Should I have left my hair down instead of pulling it up?" "Are my teeth as white as hers?" "Did I just say something stupid, or are they genuinely laughing?" It's constant!!!
     So, when a friend asked if I would be interested in joining this group, I immediately said yes! What I wouldn't give to tell my insecurities good-bye! And how great would it be to discuss this with girls my own age who may share some of the same insecurities. After meeting with them the first night, it is amazing to see how many different types of girls struggle with being insecure. I mean, girls you wouldn't normally think of as having an insecurity of some sort. I'm so excited to learn some things from these girls, and have some one to hold me accountable as a grow towards being more secure. I hope that as I move through each chapter of this book, that I will grow to love myself as God has made me. I know that I will never be perfect, and that there will always be that little voice in my head questioning everything; however, I do hope to learn how to quiet that voice and be a strong and more confident woman.